the 4TH memory

i stil haven GOT A WAY OUT....hmm...

wht should i do???

who is the real u actually?

r u stil the one tht once i trust n sum1 cloz where i chat alot wit u n can share my worries...?

i hav stop contact wit u for a long time....

but i stil cant let go...

years time 4 me is long...

since from the past im asking myself y cant i juz let u go??

y cant i juz leave it n go 4 sum1 new n i lik mor...

but i juz cant y?

haiz...

thinking of it making me fel dub tht y i have 2 be so noob n doob cant let go...

tis is juz silly...

i have been thinking should i juz try it once mor...

should i juz let go evryting n dun k anyting n juz try again...???

mayb when i get an ans i mayb b satisfied...

mayb....

but evryting is stil a QUESTION MARK in my head n heart...

hmm....

a me tht is alwaz blur n confused...

is now trying 2 get an ans...

an important ans tht i waited very long...

but can i really get the ans???

i duno....

i really really....

DUNO....

~jO~