the 22ND memory

memories of the past seems to come back!!

the song of yesterday once more by carpenter...

siuts wht im thinking now...hehe^^

things juz seem nice...after such bad tragedy..

a close buddy tht juz pass his bday...

come bck to me....lik a long lost fren hehe

i wish him for his bday as usual.....

he reply me as usual also...

but....

i thought tht v wil fel lik stranger coz its been months v din chat...

things when dif instead...^^

v r as close as laz time...

he is stil the gentlemen n a study guy as usual...and sumtimes playful wit words oso...

hehe^^

so awaits him to come to celebrate his bday again....

n i gota treat tis buddy for lunch...

i hope he wont eat to muc....

i scare i cant pay the bill hehe^^

since v make tis promise....

it makes me think bck of our past years memories...

when i 1st meet him....

wit his half awake look from sleep...

n of coz....

during my bday he treat me for my lunch hehe^^

he is such great guy..hope tht he wil hav a gud future awaits...him....

tht is my wish for him....during his bday..

hope my wish come true....

after i've been tru gud n bad too many times tis few weeks....

he makes me hav a great confident tht...sumtimes...great friendships stil stand strong as long as they stil care...hehe^^

happy birthday

the 29th of march guy!!

~JO~

THE 21st MEMORY

never thought tht this wil happen to me...

i were foolish enough to hav thought tht we could last....

but things juz end the same....

u break our 1st promise...

it makes me hate u mor then anyting...

im trying hard to love u as much as i can

but thing juz end up lik tht....

i never thought u wil b as stupid as tht to hav show me u r having sum1 else outside....

i thought u r gud enuf for me to make me forget the one i love very muc

and choosing u is my rite decision...

but it end up u make me fel mor stupid then ever...

...

T_T

recently...alot thing been goin on....

i thought i make the right decision tht u should stop contact with me...

BUT....

thing seems different

since...i noe the truth behind the truth....

wil my actions and decision make me regret....

arghh......!!

should i just say u r stupid too kind o juz say u r a liar...

hah.....

~jO~

the 20TH memory

the feeling wil never be the same

THINGS WIL NEVER BE SAME AS LAST TIME...

SORY

NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I SAY SORY

I CANT CHANGE ANYTHING....

IM REALLY SELFISH THIS TIME...

I JUZ DUNO Y I CANT ACCEPT IT NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY..

THE WAY YOU ACT N U RESPOND REALLY MAKE ME HARD TO ACCEPT THT U R LIK THT

I THOUGHT I NOE U ONCE VERY CLOSE

BUT SINCE U DONE THOSE TING

IM REALLY CONFUSED WHO IS THE REAL U..

THE ONE WHO IS OVER SENSITIVE

OR SUM1 WHO REALLY CARE BOUT ME TOO MUCH...

I CANT EVEN NOE WHICH 1 CHOULD I JUDGE ON U...

TIS IS THE 2ND TIME I'VE JUDGE PPL WRONGLY...

I DUN MIND BEING WRONG...BUT IM REALLY SUPRISE WITH IT...

THING WIL NOT BE THE SAME....

MAYB TIMES HELP

BUT IN THE MEAN TIME I GUESS

THIS IS WHT MAKES THE BEZ FOR ME....

COZ I REALLY DUNO WHT SHOULD I DO IN FRONT OF U...

I CANT FORCE MYSELF TO BE ACTING LIK NOTHING BUT IN MY HEART

THERE IS A TORN...

I DUN LIK TO LIE O EVEN FAKE IN FRONT OF U

SO NO MATTER HOW HARD TO ACCPET I'LL TEL U...

BUT I CAN REALLY JUZ SAY ITS ALL GONNA BE DIFFERENT

SORY...

TO YENG LING AND XIN...

I NOE SINCE TIS TING HAPPEN I'VE BOTHER U GUYS ALOT...

SORY...

~jo~