the 26TH memory

hOw LonG cAn mY bLoG SuRviVe??

ah.....tired....soon its trial...

damn scare...

haiz...><

count down...18days...to my trial...gosh....

my mind is kep spinning right round right round...

things turn badly tis few weeks....

i hate going tru tis few weeks...

its lik killing me...!!

i've saw things tht i HATE so much....

i've been cold for few weeks...

i've juz SICK...

hmph....

i hope it past fast....

HATE MY ATTITUDE n TEMPER in the meantime....!!

im juz not ME!!!

T_T

~JO~

THE 25th MEMORY

ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I TOUCH MY BLOG

exam had just over but everyting seems so dull...

n remain the same as usual...

as i noe time dun left muc...

i ned to focus on my studies gosh BORING!!

hmm...

tiring day n boring....

everything in my mind is juz SCOUT SCOUT SCOUT

n SCOUT...

hmm....the paper work the performance the gajet...

my training classes...

n my poor tuition classes...

when can i juz dump those thing off to the rubbish bin...!!

haiz...

mum want me to take undang test but im just scared n im not ready yet

what reason can giv??

im just so useless in the meantime

cant do things right...making a wrong decision...

feeling bad....

arghhh...

im hopeless...!!

hmph....

my mood is stinky tonight!!

tears drops on my guitar but it seems is on my piano...

>.<

i juz hope everyting wil be fine for the campfire...

n thankz so muc for my dancers...

hope u guys enjoy wht i intend to plan...

hehe^^

weng fei try it n u wil noe it wht is dancing about hehe^^

nitez....

JO

the 24TH memory

a YES or NO???

hmm....u speak through your mouth...

but what you speak n talk will it really be the words that lay deep in your heart?

can your words really be trusted???

its been a month since we talk...n text...

you dont seem to care when we dont texts...

so why in the sudden give me such a suprise..that you wanted me to give you an answer..

you seem to be good...but is it the true you..??

there is someone better standing in the dark waiting for you...

you know she loves you more then i do..

i feel bad...

o even can say as worse...

you just seem to ask this in a wrong time...

my heart is full with someone else shadow...

for the time being...

~JO~

THE 23rd MEMORY

WhT ShoULD i DO?????

why do we hav to hav such LUCK!!!?

REALLY MAKING US

out of strength out of energy

tired of doing it...

sick of failing...

burden burden burden....

why should my troop hav to hav such burden....

those teachers juz shout out their demand n intend

we should finish up wht they started to command....

we r human not their pets....

cant we juz hav their approval to do wht we intend to do???

having a campfire isn't tht hard....

but why cant they juz let us hav it...

n without putting such stupid burden on us anymore....

i juz wan a CAMPFIRE not a so cal...

CAMP AGONG...

fine...if u wan us to hav it...okay we wil do it...

but campfire wil stil be the main of anyting....

having our 50th anniversary means alot to US...

but i guess it mean noting to those XXXX

open up ur eyes...

try to thinking...

wil the camp u demand really works????

dont try to demand us to do anyting

without caring us n knowing wht WE r thinking...

i really juz wan our campfire to work...

really really....

hah...wht can i do to really make it work??

i really am a bit useless....

sory...guys...i make u guys worry n burden instead of making it easier for u all to get approval...

sory....

hmm....

~JO~

the 22ND memory

memories of the past seems to come back!!

the song of yesterday once more by carpenter...

siuts wht im thinking now...hehe^^

things juz seem nice...after such bad tragedy..

a close buddy tht juz pass his bday...

come bck to me....lik a long lost fren hehe

i wish him for his bday as usual.....

he reply me as usual also...

but....

i thought tht v wil fel lik stranger coz its been months v din chat...

things when dif instead...^^

v r as close as laz time...

he is stil the gentlemen n a study guy as usual...and sumtimes playful wit words oso...

hehe^^

so awaits him to come to celebrate his bday again....

n i gota treat tis buddy for lunch...

i hope he wont eat to muc....

i scare i cant pay the bill hehe^^

since v make tis promise....

it makes me think bck of our past years memories...

when i 1st meet him....

wit his half awake look from sleep...

n of coz....

during my bday he treat me for my lunch hehe^^

he is such great guy..hope tht he wil hav a gud future awaits...him....

tht is my wish for him....during his bday..

hope my wish come true....

after i've been tru gud n bad too many times tis few weeks....

he makes me hav a great confident tht...sumtimes...great friendships stil stand strong as long as they stil care...hehe^^

happy birthday

the 29th of march guy!!

~JO~

THE 21st MEMORY

never thought tht this wil happen to me...

i were foolish enough to hav thought tht we could last....

but things juz end the same....

u break our 1st promise...

it makes me hate u mor then anyting...

im trying hard to love u as much as i can

but thing juz end up lik tht....

i never thought u wil b as stupid as tht to hav show me u r having sum1 else outside....

i thought u r gud enuf for me to make me forget the one i love very muc

and choosing u is my rite decision...

but it end up u make me fel mor stupid then ever...

...

T_T

recently...alot thing been goin on....

i thought i make the right decision tht u should stop contact with me...

BUT....

thing seems different

since...i noe the truth behind the truth....

wil my actions and decision make me regret....

arghh......!!

should i just say u r stupid too kind o juz say u r a liar...

hah.....

~jO~

the 20TH memory

the feeling wil never be the same

THINGS WIL NEVER BE SAME AS LAST TIME...

SORY

NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I SAY SORY

I CANT CHANGE ANYTHING....

IM REALLY SELFISH THIS TIME...

I JUZ DUNO Y I CANT ACCEPT IT NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY..

THE WAY YOU ACT N U RESPOND REALLY MAKE ME HARD TO ACCEPT THT U R LIK THT

I THOUGHT I NOE U ONCE VERY CLOSE

BUT SINCE U DONE THOSE TING

IM REALLY CONFUSED WHO IS THE REAL U..

THE ONE WHO IS OVER SENSITIVE

OR SUM1 WHO REALLY CARE BOUT ME TOO MUCH...

I CANT EVEN NOE WHICH 1 CHOULD I JUDGE ON U...

TIS IS THE 2ND TIME I'VE JUDGE PPL WRONGLY...

I DUN MIND BEING WRONG...BUT IM REALLY SUPRISE WITH IT...

THING WIL NOT BE THE SAME....

MAYB TIMES HELP

BUT IN THE MEAN TIME I GUESS

THIS IS WHT MAKES THE BEZ FOR ME....

COZ I REALLY DUNO WHT SHOULD I DO IN FRONT OF U...

I CANT FORCE MYSELF TO BE ACTING LIK NOTHING BUT IN MY HEART

THERE IS A TORN...

I DUN LIK TO LIE O EVEN FAKE IN FRONT OF U

SO NO MATTER HOW HARD TO ACCPET I'LL TEL U...

BUT I CAN REALLY JUZ SAY ITS ALL GONNA BE DIFFERENT

SORY...

TO YENG LING AND XIN...

I NOE SINCE TIS TING HAPPEN I'VE BOTHER U GUYS ALOT...

SORY...

~jo~

THE 19th MEMORY

tHe wEirD VaLeNtInE!!

my valentine....end up being like this....

T_T

all crying in a karaoke room....

gosh gosh gosh~~

~JO~

the 18TH memory

the unbelievable beginning!!

SKUL START ORDI....
BORED IN SKUL AS USUAL BUT DEN...EVERYTING SEEMS FINE FOR THE 1ST 2ND WEEK...
BUT
THINGS DIDN'T GO AS SMOOTH AS I THOUGHT
HMM.....
MY GROUP OF SISTER NOW LEFT 5 ONLY
I GUESS IS BAD TO SAY IT
BUT IT IS THE TRUTH...
SO I DUN MIND POSTING IT UP....
I REALLY NVR THOUGHT THT...
THE BIGGEST PROBLEM WIL BE ME!!!
SHE DUN LIK ME AT ALL PUTTING THE BLAME ON ME....
N CAN SAY AS SHE HATES ME...
BUT Y SHE ACT LIK NOTING IN FRONT OF ME...
IT MAKES HER FAKE....EVEN I DUN LIK SAYING IT
I DUN MIND TAKING DE BLAME BUT IT DOES HURT MY FEELINGS....
IF U DUN WAN ME AS A BUDDY I DUN MIND BUT JUZ TEL THE TRUTH...
I JUZ HATE IT WHEN I GET LIES FROM MY BUDDIES...
U WANNA SAY SAY INFRONT OF ME
U HATE ME DUN ACT LIK U STIL TAKE ME AS FRENZ...
LYING IS NOT THE WAY OF SHOWING THT U CARE...TO NOT BREAK OUR FRENSHIP...
IT MEANS FAKE!!
OK ENUF OF SAYING THOSE BAD MEMORIES....
I GUESS V ALL 6 HAD ENUF OF THINKING TIS PROM
SO I GUESS IS JUZ AN END....
U PUT A MOZ STUPID BLAME ON ME THT I NVR TOT IS MY PROM...
THT IS...I DIN AFFECT XIN
IN HATING U....
IM NOT HER N I CANT CONTROL HER MIND
PLS UNDERSTAND THT!!
"U MAYB SEEING BUT U AREN'T LOOKING"
HMM.....
TRY TO REALLY UNDERSTAND UR FRENZ....
THINK FROM THEIR WAY...
DUN JUZ THINK THT U NOE THE ANS AND THT IS THE FINAL....
ITS DOOB!!
HMM.....
==
~jo~

THE 17th MEMORY

gorgeous new year!!!

TALKING BOUT THE NEW YEAR I JUST REMEMBER ONE THING THT IS...

being wet...

HAHA^^

HMM....HAVING A WONDERFUL TIME NEAR THE POOL FOR A NEW YEAR

1ST TIME GETTING SO EXCITED...

HAVING A BBQ ON OWN WIT FRENZ N BUDDIEZ....

HAHA^^

THE 1ST TIME EATING MY BBQ CHICKEN IN THE POOL

HAVING ALOT OF SAUSAGES N CHICKEN WINGS N EVEN PORK CHOPS...

V DIN REALLY NED TO SNATCH HEHE

COZ V GOT 3 GUD COOK...HAHA

weng fei ah kang and carmen!!

NOT INCLUDE ME YET....

HAHA^^

AS FOR THE WATER WAR PART

THE 1ST ONE TO BE DUMP IN THE POOL IS LING...

POOR TING

I DID THT OF COZ...

HEHE...

SHE IS THE EASIEST TO CARRY SO SORY TO SAY BYE BYE LING YOU R IN THE POOL...

N FOLLOWING THE LADIES N SO ON THE GENTLEMEN...

HAHA^^

ALL GET WET..

BUT THE MOZ POOR TING IS...

I GET BULLY FROM WENG FEI....CHEE HAN...N EVEN AH KANG...

GOSH...

THE JUZ KEP AIMING ME....

WENG FEI BULLY ME THE MOZ AS I CAN C...t-t

POOR ME....

HAVING A BOTTLE OF SO CAL"CHAMPAGNE"

HEHE

HAVING THE SAME TYPE BOTTLE ONLY HEHE....

THE FIREWORKS IS GREAT...AND V JUZ LOVE....

HAVING A TRUE O DARE JUZ BESIDE THE POOL AFTER THE FIREWORKS IN THE EARLY MORNING OF

2++

V END UP CUDDLING IN CARMEN'S BLANKET...^^

N OVERNITE....

BUT THE WORSE TING HAPPEN THE NEXT MORNING THT IS....

ALL OUR SLEEPING POST BEEN SNATCH BY YENG...

AND SHE UPLOAD IN HER FS....GOSH....

IM SO FISH....>.<

BUT V END UP HAVING A NICE NEW YEAR....HEHE^^

JUZ LOVE IT...

~jo~

the 16TH memory

jUz A wONderFul cHRiStmAs

things juz got nice on christmas eve...!! hehe^^

having nice presents...

nice food....

and a wonderful night...

playing stacko...

and im the first who get the punishment...

gosh...

i alwaz did hav those bad luck...

so cal "rasmi"

awaitting the clock to strike 12

all is getting uneasy...especially the two little kiddo...hehe^^

a marvelous...midnite...

with alot of my dreams come true presents...

and a stomach full of bbq's food...^^ haha...

i get alots of clothes....from bro n mummy...

chocolate from those two little rats..

nice shoes tht i dream of from my lovely mummy...

hehe^^

i juz love my christmas...under the moon haha^^

during the nights...

with glimmering of the stars....

hehe^^

muackz muackz thankz...all of u...

mummy..liao teow..bro..ah sou..jason..munyew..and the two little kiddo...!!

hehe^^

~jO~